“I'm tired of being pushed around. Tired of being told what to do. Tired of writing your god-darned articles. Tired of dancing to everybody else's tune. Tired of being told whom to marry. In short... I'm tired!” I love this quote as said by an exasperated Barbara Stanwyk in the 1945 holiday classic “Christmas in… Continue reading Me and Brené, Cultivating Play and Rest
I wrote this thinking I wouldn’t publish it. I am scared to let it be seen by “the wrong people”. But if I am not honest in my writing and open about my struggle then what is the point? I feel completely alone in this right now and like the only mother who has ever… Continue reading What I’d Like To Say Is…
Did you share a bedroom with a sibling? I did for the first twelve years of my life. When my mom bought us the house that I think of as home (my parents have moved twice since I moved out) I got to have my own room for the first time. I had dreamed about… Continue reading Me and Brené, Cultivating Creativity
It is so hard. To wake up and say “today I am enough. No matter what the outcome, no matter what chores go unfinished, what absurd things come out of my mouth, no matter what clothes no longer fit right I AM ENOUGH,” is really freakin’ difficult. For the past few weeks I have struggled… Continue reading When I Am Not Enough
When I left our family court hearing early last Friday morning I was frustrated to hear the decision would be mailed to us later that day. In 2015 it was to be mailed on actual paper with a stamp and all. My husband was away for work all week. I turned Liam over to his… Continue reading Questioning My Faith in a Broken System
My dreams did not come true today. It was close. I learned about the Supreme Court ruling on marriage equality as I was in the car on my way home from the courthouse. I cried tears of relief, fear, and happiness. As a proud advocate for LGBTQ rights for the whole of my adult life,… Continue reading Practicing Faith and Authenticity in Family Court
I could not have planned the timing of this guidepost any better if I had tried. Even if I had tried it would have gotten thrown off by, yet another, adjournment request from opposing counsel. Two weeks ago my faith was waning and my intuition was being second-guessed at every turn. To fill you in,… Continue reading Me and Brené, Cultivating Intuition and Trusting Faith
I am not a perfect mother. I am human. Very human. I do a lot right and am actually pretty proud of how I parent. The relationship my son, Liam, and I have despite all we have been through (both together and apart) is solid. I’m highly impatient at the dinner table. It drives me… Continue reading If I Did One Thing Right As A Parent…
This time is a repeatedly difficult time for me. Two weeks ago I filed a Motion to Enforce Litigants Rights with the family court. It was delivered to opposing counsel. They didn’t accept it. It was delivered again last Tuesday, a day after they needed to receive it according to the court calendar. I assume… Continue reading Me and Brené: Cultivating Gratitude and Joy
Earlier this week a California judge ordered that actress Kelly Rutherford’s two young children be returned to the United States after an appallingly bad decision from another judge that the children be ripped from their mother and only known caregiver to go live with their German father in France because his visa had expired. If… Continue reading To Have Faith and Courage While Being Afraid
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